Our psychology appointment

First of all, just as a warning to those considering IVF: The BCPs can be nasty. :( I've been sooooo emotional lately. I wasn't sure what it was, but I've talked to a few fellow IVF'ers who have told me the BCPs can be the culprit as they are full of hormones. I've talked to a couple IVF'ers who had trouble with the BCPs but didn't have trouble with the stims. I hope I'm like that! :) I've also talked to a couple who had no trouble with the BCPs, but had a lot of trouble with the stims. I hope that's not me....otherwise, we're really in for it. :(

Yesterday, we went to see a psychologist for the IVF process. It was mandatory and I was so unhappy that we even had to go. I've been seeing a therapist since we started dealing with infertility. Alot of people who see a therapist are often labeled "crazy" or "weird", but after seeing one myself, I've realized it more normal to be seeking help and that everyone needs help once in awhile. I don't know what I'd do without my therapist.

Anyway, getting off track here. :) I was annoyed that we had to go and it seemed like a waste of our time...and it was. We had to drive over an hour on a Saturday. It was raining and all I wanted to do was cuddle up with a good book and blanket at home. I was pretty crabby, but Mark and I had a good time on the way there. He sure can make me laugh. I do enjoy the car trips as it gives us more time together and more laughs. Otherwise, he would be sleeping at home, so this way we get to spend more time together.

Basically the psychologist went over our history and asked about our likes and dislikes and stuff. She asked all the basic questions and asked about our families. Then, she asked about how we're going to tell the child about about he/she was brought into this world. Well, apparently we didn't say all the right things because she was very opinionated about a few things. She kept bringing her own experiences into it. I left feeling like a horrible mother already and when you leave a therapist's office, you're supposed to leave feeling better, not worse, right?

Before we left, she also gave us brochures on some of her retreats and classes she offers. I kind of felt like we were being pushed into it even though she kept saying it was our choice and if we needed the support, she was just throwing it out there. But Mark and I both agreed she was a little pushy. At one point when she said we might have enough support, I said, "Yeah, I've got a lot of support, my family, friends, online support and my therapist is always right there. I've got her home phone number, work number, cell number, pager number, work e-mail address, home e-mail address. I see her sister for chiropractor and acupuncture and her husband is my husband's doctor so in a pinch, he can always get sick and go into the hospital and I can get a hold of her that way."

She just nodded and told me that was great. I think she was a little disappointed, though. :)

Anyway, yes, a waste of our time and now, I feel like a bad mother already....but that's where MY therapist comes in and I'll be talking to her about it at the next appointment. :)

I'm crossing this off and moving onto Monday when we do the sonogram. This is one step closer to our peanut. :)