I lied. This is the last post. After this, you can hear about my journey at Tammy's Journey. I decide to post our IVF protocol in hopes that it will helps someone who is going through the IVF process.
Our IVF protocol and schedule:
September 6: CD 1.
September 8: Start BCPs. FSH and estradiol. FSH is a little high. Continue BCPs through September 24. Chiropractic adjustment.
September 15: Acupuncture.
September 18: Acupuncture and chiropractic adjustment.
September 21: Start Lupron 20 units. Continue through September 30.
September 22: Acupuncture.
September 25: Acupuncture.
September 29: Acupuncture and chiropractic adjustment.
September 30: Estradiol and ultrasound. Everything looks good. 8 follies on the right and 5 on the left.
October 1: Lupron 5 units every morning. Continue through October 16 (day of retrieval).
October 3: Start Menopur 75 units (through October 14) and Follistim 225 units daily.
October 5: Estradiol drawn. Good at 47. Instructed to continue same doses.
October 6: Acupuncture and chiropractic adjustment.
October 7: Estradiol and ultrasound. 3 follies on the right, largest 10 mm. 5 follies on the left, largest 8 mm. Most are 7-8 mm. Instructed to increase Follistim to 300 units to try to speed the process up and continued on that dose through October 13.
October 9: Estradiol and ultrasound. 8 follies over 10 mm, largest 16 mm.
October 11: Estradiol and ultrasound. Largest were 20 mm and 8 were 14 mm.
October 12: Estradiol and ultrasound. Quite a few more from day before.
October 13: Estradiol and ultrasound. Lots of follies. Could have as many as 11 mature eggs. Acupuncture and chiropractic adjustment.
October 14: HCG shot at 9:30 p.m.
October 16: Egg retrieval at 9:30 a.m. Retrieved 12 eggs. 9 were mature.
October 18: Only 4 fertilized out of the 9 (below average) and did not start dividing which they should have.
October 19: None of the eggs continued to divide. Transfer is cancelled.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Talked to the doctor
***After this post, I won't be posting on here for awhile until if/when we do another IVF cycle. I will continue posting on my other blog at Tammy's Journey. Please join me there! Thanks!***
Our doctor called today and the first thing he said was "This is a disaster". Of course, that wasn't what I needed to hear and the tears just flowed. He said this is very uncommon and, although he has seen it before, I am the first this year and he sees a lot of patients. He was very, very compassionate and apologized several times for not "being there for me" (he was out of town last week).
Basically because of the sperm situation....that I don't wish to go into detail here....chances are there is a problem with my eggs. I have to undergo some genetic testing that I won't know the results about for about a month. If we do decide to do IVF again, the soonest we would be able to do it would be January.
ICSI (where they insert the sperm directly into the egg) probably wouldn't have helped. I probably would've had more fertilize, but the fact that they didn't divide means there is something seriously wrong. We will be checking on the sperm, but most likely it's me.
The fact that I responded so well to the meds, had a good number of eggs retrieved and a good number of mature ones (9), leads more to the fact that there was something wrong with my eggs where only 4 fertilize but won't go anywhere. Based on stats, more than 4 should've fertilized anyway.
This could explain why some months I felt something happen but it was a BFN. It could be fertilizing, but not going anywhere beyond that. I always felt there was a reason...just didn't want to hear this.
Why us? Why did we have to get this road block?
Our doctor called today and the first thing he said was "This is a disaster". Of course, that wasn't what I needed to hear and the tears just flowed. He said this is very uncommon and, although he has seen it before, I am the first this year and he sees a lot of patients. He was very, very compassionate and apologized several times for not "being there for me" (he was out of town last week).
Basically because of the sperm situation....that I don't wish to go into detail here....chances are there is a problem with my eggs. I have to undergo some genetic testing that I won't know the results about for about a month. If we do decide to do IVF again, the soonest we would be able to do it would be January.
ICSI (where they insert the sperm directly into the egg) probably wouldn't have helped. I probably would've had more fertilize, but the fact that they didn't divide means there is something seriously wrong. We will be checking on the sperm, but most likely it's me.
The fact that I responded so well to the meds, had a good number of eggs retrieved and a good number of mature ones (9), leads more to the fact that there was something wrong with my eggs where only 4 fertilize but won't go anywhere. Based on stats, more than 4 should've fertilized anyway.
This could explain why some months I felt something happen but it was a BFN. It could be fertilizing, but not going anywhere beyond that. I always felt there was a reason...just didn't want to hear this.
Why us? Why did we have to get this road block?
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Transfer is cancelled
None of the 4 divided. It's over. The transfer is cancelled.
Words can't describe what we're feeling.
I have to lay low....I'm sorry I can't be more supportive right now. I need a break from the board. Please know that I will be thinking of you all and praying for BFPs. Good luck.
Words can't describe what we're feeling.
I have to lay low....I'm sorry I can't be more supportive right now. I need a break from the board. Please know that I will be thinking of you all and praying for BFPs. Good luck.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
No more anonymous
Sadly, I have decided to turn off my anonymous commenting ability. I wanted to keep this option open because I know a couple people like to comment who do not have a google account and I definitely wanted them to have the option to leave their support.
However, I have received a couple comments that, although tried to be helpful and informative, have bothered me. I respect everyone's opinions and information...I just don't want people to feel they have to hide their name from me. You can post it on the board or under your own name. I'm 32 years old and I can take it...I promise. I promise not to judge you and I respect your opinions.
I realize my journey has been more of a struggle than others, but I know less of a struggle than others. I'm sure there are plenty of women who have been in my shoes at this point. That doesn't mean they weren't dealing with "nonprofessionals"...it's just the luck of the draw. My IVF clinic came highly recommended and I have no regrets going to this clinic.
As much as some people don't like to hear this, I believe it's all in God's plan. He knows the right time and I trust Him. During one of my IUIs, I had the same number of eggs, same trigger shot and timing as someone else on the board. They had twins, I had a BFN. It just goes to show you that God is in charge.
This anonymous commenter stated I should be angry because of this. I want to thank you for watching out for me and I know you mean well. While I'm disappointed this hasn't panned out, I'm not angry. I know these doctors are doing the best they can and the way things happen are all in God's plan. Some will believe that and others won't...I just happen to be one of those who do.
And let's not forget, it's not over yet! They'll be calling me tomorrow. I'm just holding out on prayer along with many other people....thank you for that.
So, I apologize for having to turn off the anonymous comments. I really didn't want to do that. I want to know you and know how you feel. Please don't hide your name. I'll love you no matter what.
However, I have received a couple comments that, although tried to be helpful and informative, have bothered me. I respect everyone's opinions and information...I just don't want people to feel they have to hide their name from me. You can post it on the board or under your own name. I'm 32 years old and I can take it...I promise. I promise not to judge you and I respect your opinions.
I realize my journey has been more of a struggle than others, but I know less of a struggle than others. I'm sure there are plenty of women who have been in my shoes at this point. That doesn't mean they weren't dealing with "nonprofessionals"...it's just the luck of the draw. My IVF clinic came highly recommended and I have no regrets going to this clinic.
As much as some people don't like to hear this, I believe it's all in God's plan. He knows the right time and I trust Him. During one of my IUIs, I had the same number of eggs, same trigger shot and timing as someone else on the board. They had twins, I had a BFN. It just goes to show you that God is in charge.
This anonymous commenter stated I should be angry because of this. I want to thank you for watching out for me and I know you mean well. While I'm disappointed this hasn't panned out, I'm not angry. I know these doctors are doing the best they can and the way things happen are all in God's plan. Some will believe that and others won't...I just happen to be one of those who do.
And let's not forget, it's not over yet! They'll be calling me tomorrow. I'm just holding out on prayer along with many other people....thank you for that.
So, I apologize for having to turn off the anonymous comments. I really didn't want to do that. I want to know you and know how you feel. Please don't hide your name. I'll love you no matter what.
Our report today
Well, out of the 12, only 4 fertilized and none of them have started to divide...which they should've by now.
So the results aren't good. :( We're in shock and devastated.
So the results aren't good. :( We're in shock and devastated.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Pictures and more info about the retrieval
Here are a few pictures that we took the day of the retrieval. We left our house at about 6:45 in the morning.
Here is Mark attempting to be up and ready to go.
Once again, Mark is "attempting" to be up
Mark, me and Peyton
Mark and I. No, I don't think Mark knows how to smile....especially at this time of the morning
My mom, Peyton and I
Everything went so well yesterday. I was a little nervous at first and Mark could tell. He was so sweet and would get me laughing and relaxed. That helped so much. At one point when they had me change into my gown, Mark said "You know, we could switch places. I don't think they would suspect a thing." He can always make me laugh.
The thing that was so special was that when I first woke up, I saw Mark standing right next to me with a smile on his face. He asked me if I had heard how many eggs and I told him I hadn't. He was so proud to tell me they retrieved 12 eggs. It was so special to me to hear it from Mark and not a nurse or doctor...not that they aren't cool, but to hear it from Mark was so special. I don't remember much, but Mark said I was pretty out of it and kept repeating myself. He said I said "Can you believe it? We're going to be parents" at least a dozen times. I was pretty excited. :)
I remember someone saying that after the retrieval, they felt a sense of loss from the follies. I can totally see where they are coming from. It was a little sad for me to realize that those 12 eggs that we had seen on ultrasounds for the last couple weeks were no longer in me. Granted, yes, I know it was a good thing and I was excited....but there was still that sense of loss and a little sadness.
Overall, I was one of the lucky ones who had no problems. I was really tired and slept when we got home at about 1 until 3:30. Then I was worried I wouldn't sleep that night so I forced myself to stay awake. Then I was in bed by 8 and slept in until 6:30 this morning which is late for me. Otherwise, I had very minimal cramping and a little low back pain, so I consider myself very lucky. It did hurt a little to go to the bathroom yesterday, but not bad.
I think I'm coming down with a cold, too, which could be why I'm tired, too.
I think about our 12 eggs so much. Like a protective mother, I just wanna be there and watch them and make sure they're okay and being treated right. :) I can't wait to hear tomorrow how our babies are doing.
Thanks again for all the support you guys! It means so much.
Here is Mark attempting to be up and ready to go.
Once again, Mark is "attempting" to be up
Mark, me and Peyton
Mark and I. No, I don't think Mark knows how to smile....especially at this time of the morning
My mom, Peyton and I
Everything went so well yesterday. I was a little nervous at first and Mark could tell. He was so sweet and would get me laughing and relaxed. That helped so much. At one point when they had me change into my gown, Mark said "You know, we could switch places. I don't think they would suspect a thing." He can always make me laugh.
The thing that was so special was that when I first woke up, I saw Mark standing right next to me with a smile on his face. He asked me if I had heard how many eggs and I told him I hadn't. He was so proud to tell me they retrieved 12 eggs. It was so special to me to hear it from Mark and not a nurse or doctor...not that they aren't cool, but to hear it from Mark was so special. I don't remember much, but Mark said I was pretty out of it and kept repeating myself. He said I said "Can you believe it? We're going to be parents" at least a dozen times. I was pretty excited. :)
I remember someone saying that after the retrieval, they felt a sense of loss from the follies. I can totally see where they are coming from. It was a little sad for me to realize that those 12 eggs that we had seen on ultrasounds for the last couple weeks were no longer in me. Granted, yes, I know it was a good thing and I was excited....but there was still that sense of loss and a little sadness.
Overall, I was one of the lucky ones who had no problems. I was really tired and slept when we got home at about 1 until 3:30. Then I was worried I wouldn't sleep that night so I forced myself to stay awake. Then I was in bed by 8 and slept in until 6:30 this morning which is late for me. Otherwise, I had very minimal cramping and a little low back pain, so I consider myself very lucky. It did hurt a little to go to the bathroom yesterday, but not bad.
I think I'm coming down with a cold, too, which could be why I'm tired, too.
I think about our 12 eggs so much. Like a protective mother, I just wanna be there and watch them and make sure they're okay and being treated right. :) I can't wait to hear tomorrow how our babies are doing.
Thanks again for all the support you guys! It means so much.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Our Flintstone Follies report
They retrieved 12 eggs! I'm not sure if all of them are mature or not. They will be calling on Saturday with the embryo report and we'll know then. That was more than they thought and were very happy with 12.
It went well. I'm just mostly tired and have a little back pain, but not too bad. I had a little cramping, but not like I expected.
Sorry this is short. I will catch up on everyone later, I promise...I'm going back to bed right now. :)
Thanks so much for all your support and prayers! It means a lot.
It went well. I'm just mostly tired and have a little back pain, but not too bad. I had a little cramping, but not like I expected.
Sorry this is short. I will catch up on everyone later, I promise...I'm going back to bed right now. :)
Thanks so much for all your support and prayers! It means a lot.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The HCG shot
More proof that my husband is a dork.
We're getting ready for the HCG shot. I can tell Mark is really nervous. It was actually cute how he was so nervous about it. :) In the typical Mark fashion, he asks me to take my pants and shirt off because it's "easier"....sure Mark.
So, I'm standing there naked, ready to get this HUGE needle poked in me and this is what Mark says:
"You're not going to fart on me, are you?"
I turn around and look at him "I'm about to get the biggest needle God ever invented into my skinny little behind and all you can think about is YOU getting farted on?"
Mark says "Well, think about it, Tammy. Your butt is right here! Wouldn't you be a little concerned?"
He's got a good point.
We're getting ready for the HCG shot. I can tell Mark is really nervous. It was actually cute how he was so nervous about it. :) In the typical Mark fashion, he asks me to take my pants and shirt off because it's "easier"....sure Mark.
So, I'm standing there naked, ready to get this HUGE needle poked in me and this is what Mark says:
"You're not going to fart on me, are you?"
I turn around and look at him "I'm about to get the biggest needle God ever invented into my skinny little behind and all you can think about is YOU getting farted on?"
Mark says "Well, think about it, Tammy. Your butt is right here! Wouldn't you be a little concerned?"
He's got a good point.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Fatigue answers
I want this blog to be as informative as possible and to hopefully help someone in the process. :) So, I thought I would post some of the answers from fellow IVF'ers to the fatigue question I had:
From twicejess: Jess was tired too, but she thought it was just from the stress of it all. She didn't sleep real well during either IVF cycle. I don't think she ever thought it was the meds.
From s&j&j: I was very tired and uncomfortable. It takes a lot of energy to grow so many eggs. I kept saying that I am doing a year's worth of work in one month. It's a bit crazy, but yes, VERY emotional and tiring! The hormones go crazy and it sounds like you have some extra stress on top of everything. You just have to take it easy best you can to help your body do what it needs to and heal as fast as it can to be ready for baby growing afterwards.
From Rajen: The drugs you're being pumped with is primarily increasing your estrogen (E2) which is a "happy" 'drug' that runs through our endocrine system. So that's probably not why you're tired or emotional. The process (IVF) itself, however, combined with the emotional strains of managing that plus Mark's health issues can definitely wear you down. Just try and rest and take care of yourself along the way!
From Samantha: I was fatigued and it could have been from the meds but I also had a drive of 1 1/2 hours without traffic but up to 3 plus hours with traffic for my monitoring so I attributed my fatigue to that and the fact that I have CFS. But I would imagine with the stress you are going through with Mark and the IVF on top of the meds it would be strange if you weren't tired.
From Jackie: It's totally normal to feel fatigued. There is a lot happening inside there, not to mention the meds, and the anticipation, etc..I think that emotional affects of the meds, also cause people to feel tired.
From twicejess: Jess was tired too, but she thought it was just from the stress of it all. She didn't sleep real well during either IVF cycle. I don't think she ever thought it was the meds.
From s&j&j: I was very tired and uncomfortable. It takes a lot of energy to grow so many eggs. I kept saying that I am doing a year's worth of work in one month. It's a bit crazy, but yes, VERY emotional and tiring! The hormones go crazy and it sounds like you have some extra stress on top of everything. You just have to take it easy best you can to help your body do what it needs to and heal as fast as it can to be ready for baby growing afterwards.
From Rajen: The drugs you're being pumped with is primarily increasing your estrogen (E2) which is a "happy" 'drug' that runs through our endocrine system. So that's probably not why you're tired or emotional. The process (IVF) itself, however, combined with the emotional strains of managing that plus Mark's health issues can definitely wear you down. Just try and rest and take care of yourself along the way!
From Samantha: I was fatigued and it could have been from the meds but I also had a drive of 1 1/2 hours without traffic but up to 3 plus hours with traffic for my monitoring so I attributed my fatigue to that and the fact that I have CFS. But I would imagine with the stress you are going through with Mark and the IVF on top of the meds it would be strange if you weren't tired.
From Jackie: It's totally normal to feel fatigued. There is a lot happening inside there, not to mention the meds, and the anticipation, etc..I think that emotional affects of the meds, also cause people to feel tired.
The schedule
Tonight we do the HCG at 9:30 p.m. The actual egg retrieval is set for 9:30 Thursday morning. :)
Pretty exciting! :)
Pretty exciting! :)
Monday, October 13, 2008
Egg retrieval is on Thursday!
Everything is really coming together! There were quite a few eggs today. We could have as many as 11 mature eggs, that's a big "could". :) I have to go down for another blood draw tomorrow, but the retrieval will definitely be Thursday.
How exciting huh? :)
Question for all the IVF'ers. I've noticed I'm exhausted. I'm so tired. Is that from the meds? I was thinking maybe it was from all the driving and Mark's heart issues and maybe I just wasn't sleeping real good. I'm emotional and crying over every little thing...which I know is probably from the meds....but just not sure about the fatigue part.
Here are pictures of our biggest Flintstone Follies:
How exciting huh? :)
Question for all the IVF'ers. I've noticed I'm exhausted. I'm so tired. Is that from the meds? I was thinking maybe it was from all the driving and Mark's heart issues and maybe I just wasn't sleeping real good. I'm emotional and crying over every little thing...which I know is probably from the meds....but just not sure about the fatigue part.
Here are pictures of our biggest Flintstone Follies:
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Sunday ultrasound
Once again, everything looks great and coming along. :) There were quite a few more that popped up today from yesterday. My lining has jumped up to 14, too. So, we're going back tomorrow and we'll see how things look. They may decide to do the HCG on Monday, making the retrieval Wednesday, or may want to wait another day to see if they want to wait for the ones found on today's ultrasound. I guess we'll find out more tomorrow. :)
I did have 2 really big ones. When the tech was measuring, Mark said "Wow. Those are really big. They have to be Fred and Barney."
I just shook my head and rolled my eyes. I think the tech was trying to look like she hadn't heard him. :) I don't blame her. Mark can be a geek. :)
The clinic was really busy today. The waiting room was packed. We were sitting next to a woman who told me "I guess we're all on the same cycle." I smiled and nodded. On the way home, Mark brought that up and said "I was so excited that maybe she was talking about my kind of cycle. I wanted to ask her if she meant a Harley or a Honda!"
I'm telling ya, he's a geek. :)
And of course, a picture of the Flintstone Follies :)
I did have 2 really big ones. When the tech was measuring, Mark said "Wow. Those are really big. They have to be Fred and Barney."
I just shook my head and rolled my eyes. I think the tech was trying to look like she hadn't heard him. :) I don't blame her. Mark can be a geek. :)
The clinic was really busy today. The waiting room was packed. We were sitting next to a woman who told me "I guess we're all on the same cycle." I smiled and nodded. On the way home, Mark brought that up and said "I was so excited that maybe she was talking about my kind of cycle. I wanted to ask her if she meant a Harley or a Honda!"
I'm telling ya, he's a geek. :)
And of course, a picture of the Flintstone Follies :)
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Saturday ultrasound
Everything looks great! The largest ones were 20 mm and then there were a total of 8 that were 14 mm. My lining is at 11 which is great. We get to go back down tomorrow for another ultrasound and blood work. They are thinking the HCG shot might be either tomorrow or Monday. Therefore the retrieval will be Tuesday or Wednesday.
Wow. :) Pretty exciting! I wasn't able to get a picture this time. :( I was really bumming...but I'm definitely going to get one tomorrow. :)
Wow. :) Pretty exciting! I wasn't able to get a picture this time. :( I was really bumming...but I'm definitely going to get one tomorrow. :)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Thursday ultrasound
Everything is looking good. :) We had 8 follicles over 10 mm. The largest one was 16 mm. Right now, they are predicting we may have 5 mature ones but that's not for sure and just a guess. But, everything is going very well!
My mom was able to go which was really special for me. I was glad she was able to be a part of it. Peyton also came which was fun. :) The nurses were so good to her. When the nurse found out Peyton was our niece, she said "We gotta get you some cousins!". :) The nurses asked Peyton how old she was and Peyton said "2. I've got big girl underwear on!" She is just soooo cute. :)
It was really special to have that experience with my mom and Peyton. Mark was there, too, of course. :)
Wlk nicknamed our follicles the "Flintstone Follicles" which we thought was pretty cool and we've been calling them that. Thanks Faith!
I've been having some burning and pain and feeling bloated, kind of like I've gained 20 pounds. I feel like someone has put 2 bowling balls in my stomach. But, I love it. :) Granted, yeah, it's not fun, but I know this is happening because of our babies, so it's worth everything to me. :)
We have another ultrasound on Saturday and I'm thinking the retrieval should be early next week.
Here is a picture of our "Flintstone Follicles". Aren't they the cutest thing you've ever seen? :)
My mom was able to go which was really special for me. I was glad she was able to be a part of it. Peyton also came which was fun. :) The nurses were so good to her. When the nurse found out Peyton was our niece, she said "We gotta get you some cousins!". :) The nurses asked Peyton how old she was and Peyton said "2. I've got big girl underwear on!" She is just soooo cute. :)
It was really special to have that experience with my mom and Peyton. Mark was there, too, of course. :)
Wlk nicknamed our follicles the "Flintstone Follicles" which we thought was pretty cool and we've been calling them that. Thanks Faith!
I've been having some burning and pain and feeling bloated, kind of like I've gained 20 pounds. I feel like someone has put 2 bowling balls in my stomach. But, I love it. :) Granted, yeah, it's not fun, but I know this is happening because of our babies, so it's worth everything to me. :)
We have another ultrasound on Saturday and I'm thinking the retrieval should be early next week.
Here is a picture of our "Flintstone Follicles". Aren't they the cutest thing you've ever seen? :)
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Ultrasound results
We had another ultrasound today! There are 3 follicles on the right, the largest measuring 10 mm. There are 5 follicles on the left, the largest is 8 mm. Most of all the follicles are 7-8 mm. They said by the time of retrieval, there could be another 2. We were told this is a perfect amount at retrieval. :) Anyone agree, disagree?
My estrogen level was 217 which is perfect. :) They did increase the follistim injection to 300 from 225 to see if we could get the follicles responding a little more. That freaked me out as I thought something was wrong, but they said everything looked good, they just didn't want me on the meds forever, so they thought increasing it would help speed up the process. Anything for speeding it up is good news to me. :)
So, once again, everything looks great. :) We're superexcited at this point. It was great to see the follies again. Each one I kept thinking "I wonder if that's THE ONE". It's a great feeling. I was a little preoccupied as the nurse wanted me writing down the sizes as she was checking everything out. I'm sure that's quite the sight...me with my legs wide open with a clipboard staring at a screen. :)
Mark did inform me on the way home that he has named all our children. I looked at him and said "Okay, so I'm afraid to ask, but go ahead...what are the names?"
Mark starts counting on his fingers "Fred, Barney, Wilma, Betty, Pebbles, Bam-Bam, Mildred, Prudence. Do you know who Fred and Barney are?"
I roll my eyes "Ah, yeah....and if you name our child Pebbles, I'm signing the divorce papers immediately".
I really don't know where he gets some of these things.
For those IVF'ers, I've got a question. I've found I've had hot flashes and I've heard that's because of the Lupron. Is that true? I have to sleep with the fan on and with nothing but my underwear on. I'll be throwing the blankets off, then get cold, then have to throw the blankets off again. Meanwhile, Mark is laying next to me with his winter p.j.s and with his electric blanket on. :) It's actually kind of funny.
My estrogen level was 217 which is perfect. :) They did increase the follistim injection to 300 from 225 to see if we could get the follicles responding a little more. That freaked me out as I thought something was wrong, but they said everything looked good, they just didn't want me on the meds forever, so they thought increasing it would help speed up the process. Anything for speeding it up is good news to me. :)
So, once again, everything looks great. :) We're superexcited at this point. It was great to see the follies again. Each one I kept thinking "I wonder if that's THE ONE". It's a great feeling. I was a little preoccupied as the nurse wanted me writing down the sizes as she was checking everything out. I'm sure that's quite the sight...me with my legs wide open with a clipboard staring at a screen. :)
Mark did inform me on the way home that he has named all our children. I looked at him and said "Okay, so I'm afraid to ask, but go ahead...what are the names?"
Mark starts counting on his fingers "Fred, Barney, Wilma, Betty, Pebbles, Bam-Bam, Mildred, Prudence. Do you know who Fred and Barney are?"
I roll my eyes "Ah, yeah....and if you name our child Pebbles, I'm signing the divorce papers immediately".
I really don't know where he gets some of these things.
For those IVF'ers, I've got a question. I've found I've had hot flashes and I've heard that's because of the Lupron. Is that true? I have to sleep with the fan on and with nothing but my underwear on. I'll be throwing the blankets off, then get cold, then have to throw the blankets off again. Meanwhile, Mark is laying next to me with his winter p.j.s and with his electric blanket on. :) It's actually kind of funny.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Estrogen level
My estrogen level was 47 yesterday which I was told was perfect. :) So, same protocol for the follistim. We get the level checked again on Tuesday and have an ultrasound again then. We can't wait to see how our potential babies are doing. :)
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Started the stims!!
Yesterday I started the stims! They've actually been going pretty well. I started the Menopur yesterday morning. I had trouble mixing it up and I was nervous I didn't get all the medication in. But, when I talked to the nurse, she said it shouldn't be a problem and it sounds like I got enough in. Then I did the follistim last night. That went good, too, although Mark was having trouble pushing the injector button in from the pen. It seemed really hard to push in. Has anyone else had that? Otherwise, everything went great.
The only thing I didn't like was how the Menopur burns. Major burning! It's like take a piece of burning charcoal to my stomach, that'll feel much better. Anyone else have the burning or is it just me?
Tomorrow, we go in for labs. Then Tuesday and Thursday we have labs and ultrasounds. I just can't believe that it's soon here! In about 2 weeks I will officially be pregnant! I just hope our babies decide to stay here with us.
I wanted to show you guys a picture of Mark's and my vials of medication:
I really hope I don't accidentally give Mark some Menopur and Mark gives me some insulin. It wouldn't be so good if I have an insulin reaction and Mark's ovulating, huh?
The only thing I didn't like was how the Menopur burns. Major burning! It's like take a piece of burning charcoal to my stomach, that'll feel much better. Anyone else have the burning or is it just me?
Tomorrow, we go in for labs. Then Tuesday and Thursday we have labs and ultrasounds. I just can't believe that it's soon here! In about 2 weeks I will officially be pregnant! I just hope our babies decide to stay here with us.
I wanted to show you guys a picture of Mark's and my vials of medication:
I really hope I don't accidentally give Mark some Menopur and Mark gives me some insulin. It wouldn't be so good if I have an insulin reaction and Mark's ovulating, huh?
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Our baseline ultrasound
Yesterday we had our baseline ultrasound after being on Lupron for 10 days. Both Mark and I were excited to see how things were going and I think the nurse could tell. Right away when she came in she asked "So, are you excited?". I smiled and nodded. She went on to say that it was getting to the point where things were going to go so fast and she was excited for us which I thought was really sweet.
Everything looks great! The nurse said things are right where they are supposed to be. She pointed out the lining to me and the uterus and then we looked at the ovaries. There are 8 follies on one side and 5 on the other. She said this was a perfect amount for a baseline.
Everything seems to be going so well and it's so exciting that everything is lining up so well. Just like it's meant to be.
Friday we start the stimulation meds. 3 shots a day. But after seeing those follies on the screen and knowing those are our potential babies, I'd do 100 shots a day. Okay, maybe not, but 3 is okay. :)
Everything looks great! The nurse said things are right where they are supposed to be. She pointed out the lining to me and the uterus and then we looked at the ovaries. There are 8 follies on one side and 5 on the other. She said this was a perfect amount for a baseline.
Everything seems to be going so well and it's so exciting that everything is lining up so well. Just like it's meant to be.
Friday we start the stimulation meds. 3 shots a day. But after seeing those follies on the screen and knowing those are our potential babies, I'd do 100 shots a day. Okay, maybe not, but 3 is okay. :)
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Stupid AF
I was really, really hoping that I wouldn't be one of those women who didn't get AF after stopping the BCPs, but I wasn't. She showed. But, on a good note, I do know things are on track and normal, so I guess I can't complain too much. Luckily, Cramping and Bloating decided not to make the trip this time...yeah! But, if you ask Mark, Crabby made a strong appearance this time. Oops...poor Mark. :(
I am now on day 8 of Lupron. On day 10 of Lupron, which will be Tuesday, I have an estradiol level drawn and an ultrasound to see how my ovaries are doing. Both Mark and I are excited to see our potential babies again. If we're this excited to see a bunch of follicles, can you imagine how we're going to be when I'm actually pregnant? :) We are such dorks.
Next Friday, we start the stimulation medications. I can't believe it's almost here already! Whoa!! Then, on Sunday, 10/05, I have another estradiol level drawn. Normally they don't draw that again but because my FSH was a little high, they want to. Then, on 10/07 we have another estradiol level drawn and an ultrasound. Then, on 10/09, another estradiol and ultrasound. From there, we see how my follies are growing to see what the next step is.
I wanted to give everyone an update as to what was going on and our next appointments.
Here is some encouragement I got from my friend, Choco, which I thought was pretty cool:
When the world says 'give up',
Hope whispers 'try one more time'
Hope you're all having a wonderful weekend!!
I am now on day 8 of Lupron. On day 10 of Lupron, which will be Tuesday, I have an estradiol level drawn and an ultrasound to see how my ovaries are doing. Both Mark and I are excited to see our potential babies again. If we're this excited to see a bunch of follicles, can you imagine how we're going to be when I'm actually pregnant? :) We are such dorks.
Next Friday, we start the stimulation medications. I can't believe it's almost here already! Whoa!! Then, on Sunday, 10/05, I have another estradiol level drawn. Normally they don't draw that again but because my FSH was a little high, they want to. Then, on 10/07 we have another estradiol level drawn and an ultrasound. Then, on 10/09, another estradiol and ultrasound. From there, we see how my follies are growing to see what the next step is.
I wanted to give everyone an update as to what was going on and our next appointments.
Here is some encouragement I got from my friend, Choco, which I thought was pretty cool:
When the world says 'give up',
Hope whispers 'try one more time'
Hope you're all having a wonderful weekend!!
Friday, September 26, 2008
I'm done with the BCPs!!
Yay!! Thank goodness! I did not like those things at all and I'm so glad to be done with them!
My daily dates with Lupron are going really well. Mark has been giving me my shots and he's done so well. He's so gentle and does such a wonderful job. There was 1 day that he had an insulin reaction and was kind of out of it. I ended up having to give myself the shot. It really went well and wasn't too bad. However, as long as Mark can give it to me, I'm all up for that. :) He did feel horrible that he wasn't there to give me my shot, but it all ended up good. :)
I've been doing acupuncture and have had 4 treatments so far. That's going really well. I'm not as tired as I used to be. I find I'm sleeping much better and I find that I'm not as emotional as I have been. All are contributed to the acupuncture. I'm really glad I started it.
I talked to my acupuncturist/chiropractor yesterday. She's so awesome. I'm so blessed to have found a Christian one who really cares about patients and isn't just in it for the money. She was very encouraging yesterday. I was telling her how I was praying so much that this will work. She said it'll help to pray for the blessings that we will have babies. No matter what, through this, Mark and I will have babies....we will be parents! God will provide us with babies. Some will go to heaven and it'll be hard, but we'll see them again. Hopefully 1 or 2....maybe 3 (whoa!)....will stay here with us and what a joyous day that will be.
That talk with her really helped. We are so blessed.
Thank you God for:
1. Giving us our babies.
2. Giving us this opportunity to be able to become parents.
3. Making this a "joint" effort by letting Mark give me my shots and making him feel more involved.
4. Giving us time to be together and have a great time. Our drives are so long, but we spend so much time together and laugh a lot. This is time Mark would otherwise be sleeping at home and not spending together.
5. Providing for us financially. Money has always been there for us.
6. Loving us and showing us we're not alone through this.
My daily dates with Lupron are going really well. Mark has been giving me my shots and he's done so well. He's so gentle and does such a wonderful job. There was 1 day that he had an insulin reaction and was kind of out of it. I ended up having to give myself the shot. It really went well and wasn't too bad. However, as long as Mark can give it to me, I'm all up for that. :) He did feel horrible that he wasn't there to give me my shot, but it all ended up good. :)
I've been doing acupuncture and have had 4 treatments so far. That's going really well. I'm not as tired as I used to be. I find I'm sleeping much better and I find that I'm not as emotional as I have been. All are contributed to the acupuncture. I'm really glad I started it.
I talked to my acupuncturist/chiropractor yesterday. She's so awesome. I'm so blessed to have found a Christian one who really cares about patients and isn't just in it for the money. She was very encouraging yesterday. I was telling her how I was praying so much that this will work. She said it'll help to pray for the blessings that we will have babies. No matter what, through this, Mark and I will have babies....we will be parents! God will provide us with babies. Some will go to heaven and it'll be hard, but we'll see them again. Hopefully 1 or 2....maybe 3 (whoa!)....will stay here with us and what a joyous day that will be.
That talk with her really helped. We are so blessed.
Thank you God for:
1. Giving us our babies.
2. Giving us this opportunity to be able to become parents.
3. Making this a "joint" effort by letting Mark give me my shots and making him feel more involved.
4. Giving us time to be together and have a great time. Our drives are so long, but we spend so much time together and laugh a lot. This is time Mark would otherwise be sleeping at home and not spending together.
5. Providing for us financially. Money has always been there for us.
6. Loving us and showing us we're not alone through this.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
My first shot of Lupron
Well, this could be interesting. I guess it's true....a picture is worth 1000 words:
Ouch, huh? I really feel sorry for that person.
Yeah, that's right...that's not me. Did I fool anyone? :)
Actually, it went great. I hardly felt it at all. Yeah, it stung a little and burned going in but it went very well. Mark was such a trooper and was so careful. He was so afraid of hurting me so he was so gentle. His eyes are really bad so he had trouble seeing the needle. He had the needle right against my skin and it was poking me. After a little while, he asked if I was ready for him to go in. I didn't have the heart to tell him it had been poking me for a while.
It went very well...I was surprised. I actually felt like a tough chick afterwards and ready to go for it again tomorrow. :)
Hope you're all having a wonderful weekend!!
Ouch, huh? I really feel sorry for that person.
Yeah, that's right...that's not me. Did I fool anyone? :)
Actually, it went great. I hardly felt it at all. Yeah, it stung a little and burned going in but it went very well. Mark was such a trooper and was so careful. He was so afraid of hurting me so he was so gentle. His eyes are really bad so he had trouble seeing the needle. He had the needle right against my skin and it was poking me. After a little while, he asked if I was ready for him to go in. I didn't have the heart to tell him it had been poking me for a while.
It went very well...I was surprised. I actually felt like a tough chick afterwards and ready to go for it again tomorrow. :)
Hope you're all having a wonderful weekend!!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Pictures of the meds
Peyton was there when the meds came so she got to be in some pictures which I loved. Tyler came a few hours later. Here are pictures of the meds:
Peyton with the box
The display of meds and syringes
The meds and syringes
Some of the meds had to be refrigerated so it came in a package with ice packs to be put in the refrigerator upon arrival. Peyton loved the ice packs and thought they were toys. Her favorite part was walking on them.
Tyler's favorite part was putting them on his face and head
Here they are both standing on the ice packs
Now being a responsible aunt, you would think, I would put a stop to the playing....but of course not. Instead, I came up with a game:
Peyton with the box
The display of meds and syringes
The meds and syringes
Some of the meds had to be refrigerated so it came in a package with ice packs to be put in the refrigerator upon arrival. Peyton loved the ice packs and thought they were toys. Her favorite part was walking on them.
Tyler's favorite part was putting them on his face and head
Here they are both standing on the ice packs
Now being a responsible aunt, you would think, I would put a stop to the playing....but of course not. Instead, I came up with a game:
Throwing the ice packs into a basket. It was fun until one broke open and gel came out so we threw them away. Tyler couldn't understand. I told him I didn't want him playing with them anymore in case there was some poisonous gas or something in it. Of course Tyler wanted to know what poisonous gas was. Mark came to the rescue with this answer "You know, like Tammy's farts!"
Friday, September 19, 2008
Nurse consult
Just as an FYI, for those doing IVF, when you're on the BCPs, it is perfectly normal to have breakthrough bleeding. I actually even had a little AF symptoms. It's so annoying, but it's normal.
We had our nurse consult yesterday. It was pretty overwhelming learning about all the medications and stuff. They went over a little bit more about the retrieval and transfer and said they will go over that a little more as time goes on. They have a nice little calendar book with the dates and medication dosages so it’s actually really easy. I think they had me in mind when they made that. I think once we get going on the medications, I’ll be okay, but the thought was kind of freaking me out yesterday. We start the Lupron on Sunday! That’s 2 days away! All my medications will be coming today so I’ll be sure to take a picture when they come.
I did make a fool out of myself yesterday. It wouldn’t be a day without making a fool out of myself. We were talking about freezing the embryos and she said she had to hold a credit card for the amount when/if we had embryos to freeze. She asked if we didn’t have any to freeze if we wanted her to shred it.
Me, being the blonde I am, said “Well, I think we’ll want it back and not shred because we’ll probably need it.”
The finance lady smiles. You can tell she’s trying not to laugh. Meanwhile, Mark is shaking his head. Immediately I realize the mistake I’ve made and just said with a beet-red face, “Aw, shredding would be good.” We all start laughing and the finance lady says I was cute…aw, thanks. I told her that I was never going to live this down and the whole family was going to hear about this. I’m sure the whole office had a good laugh when we left.
I’ll be sure post a picture when we get the medications! I can’t believe this is happening!
This weekend I will be getting caught up on blogs. I apologize as I haven’t been there like I want to be. I hope everyone is doing okay!
We had our nurse consult yesterday. It was pretty overwhelming learning about all the medications and stuff. They went over a little bit more about the retrieval and transfer and said they will go over that a little more as time goes on. They have a nice little calendar book with the dates and medication dosages so it’s actually really easy. I think they had me in mind when they made that. I think once we get going on the medications, I’ll be okay, but the thought was kind of freaking me out yesterday. We start the Lupron on Sunday! That’s 2 days away! All my medications will be coming today so I’ll be sure to take a picture when they come.
I did make a fool out of myself yesterday. It wouldn’t be a day without making a fool out of myself. We were talking about freezing the embryos and she said she had to hold a credit card for the amount when/if we had embryos to freeze. She asked if we didn’t have any to freeze if we wanted her to shred it.
Me, being the blonde I am, said “Well, I think we’ll want it back and not shred because we’ll probably need it.”
The finance lady smiles. You can tell she’s trying not to laugh. Meanwhile, Mark is shaking his head. Immediately I realize the mistake I’ve made and just said with a beet-red face, “Aw, shredding would be good.” We all start laughing and the finance lady says I was cute…aw, thanks. I told her that I was never going to live this down and the whole family was going to hear about this. I’m sure the whole office had a good laugh when we left.
I’ll be sure post a picture when we get the medications! I can’t believe this is happening!
This weekend I will be getting caught up on blogs. I apologize as I haven’t been there like I want to be. I hope everyone is doing okay!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Sorry if I've been distant
I just wanted to apologize if I haven't been as talkative in e-mails or blogs like I usually am. These BCPs are making me very emotional and just not myself. Not that I'm overally depressed or suicidal by any means...just not myself and just feeling down. I have heard that for some women, they had problems with the BCPs and not the stims, so I'm hoping that's me. I'll be fine...I always am, just not quite myself and just hanging low I guess.
On top of the BCPs, Mark's been having more trouble with his blood sugars and has been having a lot more insulin reactions, mostly at night, so I haven't been sleeping the best. And, my neck has been out so I've been waking up with headaches. Yesterday it was so bad that I was throwing up and had a really bad headache. Tomorrow I get adjusted so hopefully that'll help. :)
So, don't give up on me. :) Hopefully soon I'll be back to my old self! This process is really tough...tougher than anyone will ever know unless you've been through it.
On top of the BCPs, Mark's been having more trouble with his blood sugars and has been having a lot more insulin reactions, mostly at night, so I haven't been sleeping the best. And, my neck has been out so I've been waking up with headaches. Yesterday it was so bad that I was throwing up and had a really bad headache. Tomorrow I get adjusted so hopefully that'll help. :)
So, don't give up on me. :) Hopefully soon I'll be back to my old self! This process is really tough...tougher than anyone will ever know unless you've been through it.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Saline sonogram and trial transfer
Yesterday we had our saline sonogram and trial transfer. It was so simple and took about 5 minutes. It was just a long Pap smear. The first was a trial transfer to see how easy the catheter went through my cervix and it went very easy, no problems at all. Then they did the saline sonogram to check out my uterus and ovaries. Everything looked great and the doctor said all my parts looked wonderful. There were 9 follicles on my left side and 8 on my right side which he said was a great number.
The only concerning part was that my CD3 FSH blood work was a little high. This means that I might not respond as well to the fertility meds. However, with the amount of follicles I already have, he's not too concerned about it and thinks it'll be okay. I pointed out about the Clomid and how the Clomid seemed to produce bowling balls and he agreed that it shouldn't be a problem. I sure hope he's right.
Thursday is the nurse consult when we find out the medication protocol. We did watch our DVD explaining the shots and it made me nervous all over again. I sure hope this all goes okay.
I have to tell you this story. During the appointment, Mark was pretty sick to his stomach. I could tell that he was ready to lose his cookies the whole time we were in the office. Sure enough, as soon as we got out to the car, he loses it. Right about where we had our frozen puke last winter. I asked him what he thought brought it on and this is what he said:
"I'm not sure. Maybe it was the mashed potatoes I had for lunch. But the minute I saw your uterus, I was about to lose it."
Thanks honey. He was teasing of course....just trying to make light of the situation.
Also on the whole home, I freaked him out:
Tammy: Do you realize that we just saw the first picture of our baby?
Mark (slight pause): Really?
Tammy: Yeah. Those follicles are the first step in our baby.
Mark (slight pause and face turning slightly white): Wow......
It was so funny to see his reaction. :)
I did also have my first round of acupuncture yesterday which went very well. I did hear from my wacky psychologist that we were forced to see that if you have acupuncture right before and after the transfer, it increases your chances by 50%. So, question here.....if I do that and my acupuncturist is 45 min away, with me supposed to be on bed rest after the transfer, how does that work? Am I allowed to drive that far and go through that or would I be better off not doing that and going straight home to bed?
Thanks so much guys. :)
The only concerning part was that my CD3 FSH blood work was a little high. This means that I might not respond as well to the fertility meds. However, with the amount of follicles I already have, he's not too concerned about it and thinks it'll be okay. I pointed out about the Clomid and how the Clomid seemed to produce bowling balls and he agreed that it shouldn't be a problem. I sure hope he's right.
Thursday is the nurse consult when we find out the medication protocol. We did watch our DVD explaining the shots and it made me nervous all over again. I sure hope this all goes okay.
I have to tell you this story. During the appointment, Mark was pretty sick to his stomach. I could tell that he was ready to lose his cookies the whole time we were in the office. Sure enough, as soon as we got out to the car, he loses it. Right about where we had our frozen puke last winter. I asked him what he thought brought it on and this is what he said:
"I'm not sure. Maybe it was the mashed potatoes I had for lunch. But the minute I saw your uterus, I was about to lose it."
Thanks honey. He was teasing of course....just trying to make light of the situation.
Also on the whole home, I freaked him out:
Tammy: Do you realize that we just saw the first picture of our baby?
Mark (slight pause): Really?
Tammy: Yeah. Those follicles are the first step in our baby.
Mark (slight pause and face turning slightly white): Wow......
It was so funny to see his reaction. :)
I did also have my first round of acupuncture yesterday which went very well. I did hear from my wacky psychologist that we were forced to see that if you have acupuncture right before and after the transfer, it increases your chances by 50%. So, question here.....if I do that and my acupuncturist is 45 min away, with me supposed to be on bed rest after the transfer, how does that work? Am I allowed to drive that far and go through that or would I be better off not doing that and going straight home to bed?
Thanks so much guys. :)
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Our psychology appointment
First of all, just as a warning to those considering IVF: The BCPs can be nasty. :( I've been sooooo emotional lately. I wasn't sure what it was, but I've talked to a few fellow IVF'ers who have told me the BCPs can be the culprit as they are full of hormones. I've talked to a couple IVF'ers who had trouble with the BCPs but didn't have trouble with the stims. I hope I'm like that! :) I've also talked to a couple who had no trouble with the BCPs, but had a lot of trouble with the stims. I hope that's not me....otherwise, we're really in for it. :(
Yesterday, we went to see a psychologist for the IVF process. It was mandatory and I was so unhappy that we even had to go. I've been seeing a therapist since we started dealing with infertility. Alot of people who see a therapist are often labeled "crazy" or "weird", but after seeing one myself, I've realized it more normal to be seeking help and that everyone needs help once in awhile. I don't know what I'd do without my therapist.
Anyway, getting off track here. :) I was annoyed that we had to go and it seemed like a waste of our time...and it was. We had to drive over an hour on a Saturday. It was raining and all I wanted to do was cuddle up with a good book and blanket at home. I was pretty crabby, but Mark and I had a good time on the way there. He sure can make me laugh. I do enjoy the car trips as it gives us more time together and more laughs. Otherwise, he would be sleeping at home, so this way we get to spend more time together.
Basically the psychologist went over our history and asked about our likes and dislikes and stuff. She asked all the basic questions and asked about our families. Then, she asked about how we're going to tell the child about about he/she was brought into this world. Well, apparently we didn't say all the right things because she was very opinionated about a few things. She kept bringing her own experiences into it. I left feeling like a horrible mother already and when you leave a therapist's office, you're supposed to leave feeling better, not worse, right?
Before we left, she also gave us brochures on some of her retreats and classes she offers. I kind of felt like we were being pushed into it even though she kept saying it was our choice and if we needed the support, she was just throwing it out there. But Mark and I both agreed she was a little pushy. At one point when she said we might have enough support, I said, "Yeah, I've got a lot of support, my family, friends, online support and my therapist is always right there. I've got her home phone number, work number, cell number, pager number, work e-mail address, home e-mail address. I see her sister for chiropractor and acupuncture and her husband is my husband's doctor so in a pinch, he can always get sick and go into the hospital and I can get a hold of her that way."
She just nodded and told me that was great. I think she was a little disappointed, though. :)
Anyway, yes, a waste of our time and now, I feel like a bad mother already....but that's where MY therapist comes in and I'll be talking to her about it at the next appointment. :)
I'm crossing this off and moving onto Monday when we do the sonogram. This is one step closer to our peanut. :)
Yesterday, we went to see a psychologist for the IVF process. It was mandatory and I was so unhappy that we even had to go. I've been seeing a therapist since we started dealing with infertility. Alot of people who see a therapist are often labeled "crazy" or "weird", but after seeing one myself, I've realized it more normal to be seeking help and that everyone needs help once in awhile. I don't know what I'd do without my therapist.
Anyway, getting off track here. :) I was annoyed that we had to go and it seemed like a waste of our time...and it was. We had to drive over an hour on a Saturday. It was raining and all I wanted to do was cuddle up with a good book and blanket at home. I was pretty crabby, but Mark and I had a good time on the way there. He sure can make me laugh. I do enjoy the car trips as it gives us more time together and more laughs. Otherwise, he would be sleeping at home, so this way we get to spend more time together.
Basically the psychologist went over our history and asked about our likes and dislikes and stuff. She asked all the basic questions and asked about our families. Then, she asked about how we're going to tell the child about about he/she was brought into this world. Well, apparently we didn't say all the right things because she was very opinionated about a few things. She kept bringing her own experiences into it. I left feeling like a horrible mother already and when you leave a therapist's office, you're supposed to leave feeling better, not worse, right?
Before we left, she also gave us brochures on some of her retreats and classes she offers. I kind of felt like we were being pushed into it even though she kept saying it was our choice and if we needed the support, she was just throwing it out there. But Mark and I both agreed she was a little pushy. At one point when she said we might have enough support, I said, "Yeah, I've got a lot of support, my family, friends, online support and my therapist is always right there. I've got her home phone number, work number, cell number, pager number, work e-mail address, home e-mail address. I see her sister for chiropractor and acupuncture and her husband is my husband's doctor so in a pinch, he can always get sick and go into the hospital and I can get a hold of her that way."
She just nodded and told me that was great. I think she was a little disappointed, though. :)
Anyway, yes, a waste of our time and now, I feel like a bad mother already....but that's where MY therapist comes in and I'll be talking to her about it at the next appointment. :)
I'm crossing this off and moving onto Monday when we do the sonogram. This is one step closer to our peanut. :)
Monday, September 8, 2008
Shot training
I gotta first tell you guys a cute Tyler story. I have an "IVF folder" where I keep all my IVF info in it. On the front, I have pictures of Tyler, Peyton and Adelaide and some cute pictures they made for me as inspiration. Tyler had seen the book.
Tyler: What's my picture doing on there?
Tammy: That's for strength for me.
Tyler: What's strength?
Tammy: Well, you know how Mark and I are trying to have a baby?
Tyler: Yeah?
Tammy: Well, sometimes it gets really hard. We have to go through a lot to get a baby and it can be really tough on us. So, I look at the picture of you and I know that I would go through all our pain and tough times for you and I know I can do this and go through all this stuff for our baby because of you. I look at your picture and it helps me to keep going to try and get our baby.
Tyler: You get all that from one little picture?
He's soooo cute. :)
Shot training went well today. It wasn't too bad. The nurse did hands-on training with us and another couple. She showed us 5 different shots we'd have to do:
1. Lupron: Stimulation and prevent untimely ovulation. This was drawn up just like the insulin shots I give Mark every day so I'm thinking Piece of cake...no problem...I can do this!!
2. Menopur: Stimulation. This has 2 vials that has to be mixed. It's just like the glucagon shots I have to give Mark when his sugar goes really low. Sweet! Piece of cake....no problem!
At this point, Mark and I are looking at each other thinking this isn't going to be so bad.
3. Follistim: Stimulation. This is a pen that involves just dialing up the units and injecting. For a "normal" person, this would probably be the easiest of the shots, but I wasn't used to it and liked the Lupron and Menopur more. For some reason, I had more trouble with this one than the other 2, but I'm sure it'll be fine. The other couple had no problems at all, even had to help me a little, and asked "Why can't all the shots be like this and so easy?"....show offs :)
4. HCG: This has to be given 36 hours before retrieval to initiate ovulation process. I didn't pay too much attention to the nurse explaining this one. It has to be intramuscularly and all I could focus on was the HUGE needle. I've had the HCG shot before, but our clinic's nurses were kind enough to do it for me and I would just lay on the bed and they would do it for me so I never saw the needle. However, when this nurse showed us the needle, both Mark's and my eyes were popping out of our heads. I said "That's one BIG needle!" The other female in the class also nodded. And the nurse, being very supportive (big use of sarcasm there) said "Actually, this isn't that big....they are actually much bigger. We just use this for training." Thanks for the encouragement.
5. Progesterone in oil: This is to be given after the transfer to support pregnancy. Just like the HCG, this was a huge needle and has to be intramuscularly. I once again pointed out that this is a huge needle to which the nurse just nodded. I'm sure I'm getting a big red flag in my chart "Annoying!!" :)
During stimulation, there will be up to 4 shots a day...and the worst part is, I can't complain about it to Mark because that's how many he gets.....sigh. Mark has agreed to help me with giving the shots. I'm going to be mixing it up and drawing them up but he's going to assist in giving them to me...thank goodness. He is nervous about hurting me, but I'd much rather him do it than me. :)
Today is CD3 and I start my BCPs (birth control pills). I will be on these for 3 weeks.
Hope everyone is having a great day! :)
Tyler: What's my picture doing on there?
Tammy: That's for strength for me.
Tyler: What's strength?
Tammy: Well, you know how Mark and I are trying to have a baby?
Tyler: Yeah?
Tammy: Well, sometimes it gets really hard. We have to go through a lot to get a baby and it can be really tough on us. So, I look at the picture of you and I know that I would go through all our pain and tough times for you and I know I can do this and go through all this stuff for our baby because of you. I look at your picture and it helps me to keep going to try and get our baby.
Tyler: You get all that from one little picture?
He's soooo cute. :)
Shot training went well today. It wasn't too bad. The nurse did hands-on training with us and another couple. She showed us 5 different shots we'd have to do:
1. Lupron: Stimulation and prevent untimely ovulation. This was drawn up just like the insulin shots I give Mark every day so I'm thinking Piece of cake...no problem...I can do this!!
2. Menopur: Stimulation. This has 2 vials that has to be mixed. It's just like the glucagon shots I have to give Mark when his sugar goes really low. Sweet! Piece of cake....no problem!
At this point, Mark and I are looking at each other thinking this isn't going to be so bad.
3. Follistim: Stimulation. This is a pen that involves just dialing up the units and injecting. For a "normal" person, this would probably be the easiest of the shots, but I wasn't used to it and liked the Lupron and Menopur more. For some reason, I had more trouble with this one than the other 2, but I'm sure it'll be fine. The other couple had no problems at all, even had to help me a little, and asked "Why can't all the shots be like this and so easy?"....show offs :)
4. HCG: This has to be given 36 hours before retrieval to initiate ovulation process. I didn't pay too much attention to the nurse explaining this one. It has to be intramuscularly and all I could focus on was the HUGE needle. I've had the HCG shot before, but our clinic's nurses were kind enough to do it for me and I would just lay on the bed and they would do it for me so I never saw the needle. However, when this nurse showed us the needle, both Mark's and my eyes were popping out of our heads. I said "That's one BIG needle!" The other female in the class also nodded. And the nurse, being very supportive (big use of sarcasm there) said "Actually, this isn't that big....they are actually much bigger. We just use this for training." Thanks for the encouragement.
5. Progesterone in oil: This is to be given after the transfer to support pregnancy. Just like the HCG, this was a huge needle and has to be intramuscularly. I once again pointed out that this is a huge needle to which the nurse just nodded. I'm sure I'm getting a big red flag in my chart "Annoying!!" :)
During stimulation, there will be up to 4 shots a day...and the worst part is, I can't complain about it to Mark because that's how many he gets.....sigh. Mark has agreed to help me with giving the shots. I'm going to be mixing it up and drawing them up but he's going to assist in giving them to me...thank goodness. He is nervous about hurting me, but I'd much rather him do it than me. :)
Today is CD3 and I start my BCPs (birth control pills). I will be on these for 3 weeks.
Hope everyone is having a great day! :)
Saturday, September 6, 2008
CD1!!
That's the last time you'll see an exclamation point by CD1. :) AF was teasing me yesterday, poking her head in the window but not coming in. Today, she's here, annoying as ever. Once again she brought along my cousins, Cramping and Bloating and of course we can't forget Fatigue. Fatigue is extremely annoying this month.....like "go-to-bed-before-I-fall-over".
But, it's all good as now things officially get going! I start BCPs on Monday along with my CD3 labs. I also have my wonderful shot class on Monday.
Wow....this is really happening. :)
But, it's all good as now things officially get going! I start BCPs on Monday along with my CD3 labs. I also have my wonderful shot class on Monday.
Wow....this is really happening. :)
Thursday, September 4, 2008
M.D. conference
First of all, I want to apologize if the IVF posts get a little boring. I want to mostly jot down things and keep them together so it might get a little boring with stats and stuff....but I'll try to spice things up. :)
One good thing about this trip down was there was no frozen puke! We were super excited about that! To read about that story, go here: http://twondra.blogspot.com/2007/11/appointment-and-wild-couple-days.html
So, anyway, when we first went into the doctor's office, I thought we were in for it. We all sit down and he's looking over my chart and it's a little quiet. So, to break the ice, I say "So, we've decided to take the plunge!". He looks over at me over his glasses and just gives me a little grin and goes back to my chart. Mark smacks me on the leg and just shakes his head. I just shrug.
The doctor must think I'm an idiot....oh, well. At least he gets to know the real me.
Anyway, we talked a lot about the process and what to expect. Oddly enough, it didn't overwhelm me at all. Usually things like this get me all nervous and flustered, but I am super calm about this which makes me nervous because it's soooo unlike me. :) But, it makes me feel good that I'm so calm. He described the process and what to expect. Most of it I knew from talking to others.
Here are a few things we talked about:
1. There is a 10% chance we will not be able to go through with the cycle, either because there aren't enough follies or too much (in the case of OHSS where I'm overstimulated). But, there is a 90% chance everything will go okay.
2. The goal is to get 10-12 follies.
3. We talked about transferring 1 or 2 embryos and the advantages and disadvantages of both scenarios. Mark and I had already talked about this before and we have decided to transfer 2 no matter what. The chances are higher for twins but we'll cross that bridge if it comes to that. We want our best chances and God knows the outcome already anyway.
4. With IVF, there is a slightly higher risk for birth defects and risks in pregnancy. The risk for "normal" pregnancies is 2% and the risk for IVF is 4%, so it's really low and Mark and I aren't too concerned about that.
That's mostly what we talked about. Next, we wait for me to get AF, which should be tomorrow....she better not be late. :) Then, we have our shot training class on Monday.
Thanks again for all the support you guys! It means a lot!! (((HUGS)))
One good thing about this trip down was there was no frozen puke! We were super excited about that! To read about that story, go here: http://twondra.blogspot.com/2007/11/appointment-and-wild-couple-days.html
So, anyway, when we first went into the doctor's office, I thought we were in for it. We all sit down and he's looking over my chart and it's a little quiet. So, to break the ice, I say "So, we've decided to take the plunge!". He looks over at me over his glasses and just gives me a little grin and goes back to my chart. Mark smacks me on the leg and just shakes his head. I just shrug.
The doctor must think I'm an idiot....oh, well. At least he gets to know the real me.
Anyway, we talked a lot about the process and what to expect. Oddly enough, it didn't overwhelm me at all. Usually things like this get me all nervous and flustered, but I am super calm about this which makes me nervous because it's soooo unlike me. :) But, it makes me feel good that I'm so calm. He described the process and what to expect. Most of it I knew from talking to others.
Here are a few things we talked about:
1. There is a 10% chance we will not be able to go through with the cycle, either because there aren't enough follies or too much (in the case of OHSS where I'm overstimulated). But, there is a 90% chance everything will go okay.
2. The goal is to get 10-12 follies.
3. We talked about transferring 1 or 2 embryos and the advantages and disadvantages of both scenarios. Mark and I had already talked about this before and we have decided to transfer 2 no matter what. The chances are higher for twins but we'll cross that bridge if it comes to that. We want our best chances and God knows the outcome already anyway.
4. With IVF, there is a slightly higher risk for birth defects and risks in pregnancy. The risk for "normal" pregnancies is 2% and the risk for IVF is 4%, so it's really low and Mark and I aren't too concerned about that.
That's mostly what we talked about. Next, we wait for me to get AF, which should be tomorrow....she better not be late. :) Then, we have our shot training class on Monday.
Thanks again for all the support you guys! It means a lot!! (((HUGS)))
Thursday, August 28, 2008
It's starting!!
Kind of scary and exciting at the same time. The clinic called and set up some appointments:
09/04 at 10:30: M.D. conference
09/08 at 9:45: Shot teaching class....anyone wanna take that for me? :). Also, blood work done
09/15 at 1:30: Saline sonogram and trial transfer
09/18 at 1:15: Nurse consult
That'll make September go by fast between mine and Mark's appointments. :)
Can you believe this is actually happening? :)
09/04 at 10:30: M.D. conference
09/08 at 9:45: Shot teaching class....anyone wanna take that for me? :). Also, blood work done
09/15 at 1:30: Saline sonogram and trial transfer
09/18 at 1:15: Nurse consult
That'll make September go by fast between mine and Mark's appointments. :)
Can you believe this is actually happening? :)
Welcome!
Welcome to our IVF blog! If you're reading this, we know you care enough to get to know us and learn more about our journey. Thank you so much for your support and for taking the time to read our blog.
At first, Mark and I did not want to do IVF. There were a lot of things we were uncomfortable with about the procedure. But with every failed IUI, we knew we were getting closer and closer to making that hard decision. After our 12th unsuccessful IUI, we were told we would need to seriously consider IVF. After doing research, talking to other women who had been through it and lots of prayers, we have decided to go ahead with IVF.
I have created this blog to keep track of my protocol and stats and to keep a diary of my thoughts and feelings in hopes of helping someone else who will be going through it and hopefully our peanut will be able to read how he/she came into this world.
I will post all this information on my other blog also, but this one will be for our IVF journey only for those people who just want to read about our IVF journey and not about all the crazy things Mark and I do. :)
Thank you so much for stopping by, for your thoughts and prayers and support. The prayers and support give us our much needed strength to stay strong through this journey.
At first, Mark and I did not want to do IVF. There were a lot of things we were uncomfortable with about the procedure. But with every failed IUI, we knew we were getting closer and closer to making that hard decision. After our 12th unsuccessful IUI, we were told we would need to seriously consider IVF. After doing research, talking to other women who had been through it and lots of prayers, we have decided to go ahead with IVF.
I have created this blog to keep track of my protocol and stats and to keep a diary of my thoughts and feelings in hopes of helping someone else who will be going through it and hopefully our peanut will be able to read how he/she came into this world.
I will post all this information on my other blog also, but this one will be for our IVF journey only for those people who just want to read about our IVF journey and not about all the crazy things Mark and I do. :)
Thank you so much for stopping by, for your thoughts and prayers and support. The prayers and support give us our much needed strength to stay strong through this journey.
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